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My dad is getting me someone to talk too, though he thinks it won't help because he believes that I should be able to talk to them, the family. But I can't. My sister wants an explanation for EVERYTHING. Such as, why I don't I want to go to school, why am I scared, why this, why that.
Same thing with my dad. I am just scared honestly. I don't know how to explain it other than, when I am around so many people, I can't breath, my hands shake, my heart races. They just don't understand.
They think it is all for attention, but it really isn't. I just wanted to know I was/am loved. I don't want anything else.
I just can't go back to school. He won't even settle for letting me stay home for the rest of the school year.
I am so scared to do this.I am so scared. I don't know what else to do to get through to them that I can't handle being around so many people right now.
I am fragile and I still feel alone.
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