Meditation and focused breathing have been my best friends today. Taking deep breaths and returning to my centre has been extemely helpful. Thank you again Sun for introducing me to meditative walking. Making lunch in that slow calm keep the anxiety and weakness at bay. I could actually enjoy my lunch. And I love the gathas. I spent some time with the 'throughout the day' breathing. I loved it when i got to the smile. It felt good to be relaxed enough to smile. I look forward to starting my day with it tomorrow. I thought maybe I would try to write my own poem or verse to use.

I sat for awhile this evening meditating on the word peace for a while and focusing on visions the word gave me. I then moved up and down my body in my mind repeating the words relax, let go. My breathing was easy to maintain a comfortable calming rate. I think my brain was just too tired to cause any distractions. To close the session I just sat in the quiet of mindlessness. I felt so calm and relaxed I just didn't want it to stop.

When I opened my eyes again 45 minutes had passed. I had a nap this afternoon but I don't think it is going to interfer with sleep tonight. The calm of the meditation and attention to my breathing continues to keep me in a place anxiety free. I am optomistic about being able to sleep.

It has been a good night. Considering my day and how I have been feeling lately I am sure, without the meditation and focused breathing I would be in a pretty bad place by now. My emotions would be all over the map and I would be totally tied up with anxiety. Instead I am maintaining the calm and the aches and pains have lost their grip on me. I feel blessed.

Had to stop by before bed to share the peace. Cutting myself off the computer now before I get too engaged and risk any interfering stimulations.

Goodnight my friends. Be well.