I'm a rapid cycler. I go from hypomanic to depressed and again to hypomanic at least once a day! It feels like **** when I become depressed after a hypomanic episode (like now). It's like I've been switched off. It's like I'm falling through a dark and cold vertical tunnel. I want to shout and cry and scream and throw things, but I can always control myself and sometimes I wish I couldn't. Sometimes I wonder if I should stop acting so rationally. Sometimes I just want to let myself go; I want to embrace the insanity that keeps threatening me and surrender myself to it...