You reach out for help now.!.......I have done the same thing......don't want to call my Dr. because I am too proud to say I am getting sick again. Think I have to be perfect and I can beat my depression by self-will. We still think depression etc is a sign of weakness but if your cancer returned I know you would be right on that phone to get an immediate appointment!! Why do we still think mental illness in any form can be cured by self will!!!!! We listen to people who know nothing about us and think they are right. THEY ARE NOT...SO CALL!!
hugs and love!!!