Hi LostInThought, I agree with all the previous posters, you are most definitely worth it, though I know it's difficult to cultivate or connect with that feeling and belief when you've been through what you have. Your sense of worth must be built up from within, and not measured by the actions and cruelties of others, and that's no easy feat, something I know too well also. Take it easy on yourself and give yourself some credit for recognizing your distaste at how you've been treated, and start constructing the necessary boundaries to protect yourself. That doesn't mean shutting everyone out, of course, but you have the right to be treated well and with respect.

I am glad you are here, LostInThought, and I hope you are able to find the comfort, solace, and kindness you deserve here, just to start. All the best to you, and yes, you are worth it.