Wow Sun. Those are great. My memory is lousy so I had to read them but I think the spirit of them will enter my consciousness eventually. Maybe I should write them out on some nice paper cards so I am not distracted by other things on the page. It would probably be very relaxing and soothing to do that. It would also help me to remember them.

I too am glad we started this thread. It wouldn't be where it is without you and others coming and finding enough value to keep it going so thank you for what you to to keep this thread alive. I would have no doubt I would have dropped out a long time ago. Almost did at one point but with yours and lavias and others support I was able to get over that hurdle.

I had an interesting night last night. I meditated before bed and felt ready for sleep but when I got into bed as soon as I layed down my heart started racing and my breathing was speeding up. I stayed there as started to focus on my breathing. It still took some time to fall asleep but there was no tossing and turning. It was actually pleasant to just lay there resting and being with my breath. It was such a controdiction to what I am used to. Other times it would always be the struggle that I focused on which only made it worse. Sometimes I would end up crying because I was so desperate for sleep. I would end up out of bed and accepting that there would be no sleep that night.

My sleep was very restful. I woke a few times in the night but fell asleep again very quickly. I woke refreshed even with the wake ups.

Still convinced meditation is magic. It is definately helping me when symptoms are acting up and threatening to take my down or hype my up into some form of mania. I feel more in control of my response when symptoms start acting up. No major meltdowns lately even though there have been a lot of stresser to trigger me.