I can definitely relate. I keep everyone at arm's length. It's how I was raised and it feels safe. I also moved alot....thirteen times in as many years as a child. Not very fufilling since I seem unable to fully grasp unconditional love. It's like something you can smell it but can't taste.

I know love is out there because I've seen it from a distance, I've felt it for brief moments, and I believe through faith it exists. My prayers go out to all of us who live this way. We are loved.