I also have to commend you for thinking and taking care of your children first. I think Depersonalization disorder can be a phase of a lot of different psychological disorders. I have schizophrenia but psychosis is very rare for me.I've been dealing with this disease for about 10 yrs now and had only minor stuff after onset.Depersonalization for me starts with questioning myself for to long.I sometimes don't react as quickly to things as I should because of questioning my self to often.I try to deal with things one piece at a time then try to put them together as larger pieces and finally put the larger pieces together as one complete picture.I think to much and in doing so I feel like I lose out on a lot of joyful things and lose out a lot on the big picture.I believe that without the joyful experiences we lose a part of ourselves and this starts the withdraw and depersonalization.I wish you the very best ! PEACE BE WITH YOU !