(((((((((((((Caroline)))))))))))))))

I'm sorry that you're feeling so badly, and that symptoms seem to be increasing.

I'm with Place and Ben on the fact that you should be speaking with someone about feeling suicidal.

I can do exactly what you explained with forgetting, etc., when I have a high amount of anxiety or triggers...especially when it's ongoing.

Please stick close to hubby, dr., t, and your pastor and his wife right now there IRL. Know that we're here and care.

KD