This is so wise, and so true.

I have found my way to God through some of the healing I've done in therapy, and I told T once, "I wish I was the type of person who went to ladies' luncheons at a church" (I'm just not), and T said that there is a depth to my spirituality because of how I had to come to it. Through a lot of pain, and tears, and, in the end, grace.

I think healing is the same way. There is a soft spot inside that we reach when we let ourselves feel the pain...and that soft spot is where the love can get in, once the pain is out of the way. I find being loved to be a vulnerable and wonderful thing...and until I let myself find that vulnerable place, it was like I was dead inside, totally unable to feel the love that really IS here for me.

T always tells me that he wishes there was a way to do this without it hurting so much. He said that sometimes it frustrates him. But the pain is part of the process...and the process is worth it, poetgirl, because YOU are worth it.