BNLsMOM.
You are so right in differentiating between emotional/feeling pain and depression. They are different indeed. I'm so sorry you are feeling this way. I lived for years this way with the ex. It wasn't a conscious thing, it just was. I feel for what you mean about the "simple" act of a hug. (And relationship-wise I didn't care... it would've been much harder otherwise... but sometimes we just really need a good hug and understanding for so many different reasons...) So... to you!