Sunna....I understood and didn't take your post offensively or anything. I understand where you're coming from. It's like...if I'm not in the mood and it doesn't happen for a little while, eventually I forget about it all together. And I kinda have to force myself to be in the mood and, once I do, I want it regularly again.

Well......about a week ago we kissed for the first time. It was nice but I didn't want to take it any further and he was fine with that. He has taken me to dinner a couple times and we have cuddled several times.

Yesterday we had sex for the first time since our fight (over 3 weeks ago) and it felt better than I expected. I was really scared that we would start and it would feel just wrong. Actually I was terrified. I was so scared that I would feel disgusted or something half way through but I didn't.

Afterwards we went to the bar to play pool with some friends and it was the first time in a while that we went out, had fun the whole night and nothing went wrong at all. I think it was good to start over from square one.

I slept in a different bed for a while. So it was kinda like starting dating again. We have actually been having a lot of fun lately. He has been talking a lot more and opening up more. Hopefully it sticks and he keeps it up. Seems like he is in a lot better mood when he gets things off his chest (makes sense).

Thanks everyone. I felt a lot better just getting it off my chest, y'know? Thanks for your input eskie. I appreciate your story and it feels good to know that I'm not the only one. I mean, I know I'm not, but "hearing" it makes a difference.