(((((sweetlove))))) I am just now reading this because I have been in such a suckish space myself, but I just wanted to say that I care and I understand the grief. I am really struggling to deal with the grief of losing a couple of people very dear to me and I think that Treehouse described it very well when she says that it comes in waves. It does, and some days are just better and more manageable than others.

I also wanted to respond in regards to T calling to check on you. I asked my T about this once, and he said that the reason he doesn't do this is because he doesn't want to send the message that he thinks I am incapable of handling things myself. He said that I can call if I need too, and he will call me back, but that I need to reach out for that (which I hate to do also, by the way). I think that most T's are this way.

Hoping that you find some peace.