((((((((((((((Darkrunner)))))))))))))))

I think sending the e-mail is a great idea...and I think the e-mail you wrote is honest, and expresses very well the confusing place you're at right now.

Sometimes when I know I need to get something out and I'm not sure I'll be able to say it in session for whatever reason, I'll e-mail it to T and ask him to please help me talk about it when I see him. It does help.

As for finding another T....I hope you don't need to, because I know it's such a hard process...but don't write everyone off because of your ED until you talk to them...you never know. Sometimes I think about that other therapist who came to your session once for a consultation, and wonder about him.

(((((((((((darkrunner)))))))))))) I'm glad you're telling T how you really feel.