Suga, you have the anti-anxiety meds for a reason...there is no shame in taking them. I used to resist benzos, thinking I could manage to push through without them. I don't know why there is such stigma attached to needing them. If your doctor prescribed them, MHO is to take them to get through this rough spot. You can always taper back off once the crisis is past. We need to use all the tools in our toolbox, and for some of us, that includes benzos.