Soooo much of this is what I've been feeling, especially this part: </font><blockquote><div id="quote"><font class="small">Quote:</font>
I can't recognize myself. I feel completely out of it, like someone drained all my energy, took away all my emotions, and left.

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Also, the poster (Sky?) who mentioned nutrition - I know that's something I need to get a handle on. I isolate here in my apartment until I'm totally out of food. Not good but just don't feel I have the energy to get a shower, dress and go out. On the other hand, perhaps it's because I'm not eating correctly that I feel listless....or it's the depression. Who knows?

These forums are wonderful because everyone here has experienced or understands what we deal with re: our illness. {{{{{backandforth}}}}

Please feel free to PM me anytime.

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And when I think about it, I'm in my early 20's, life shoudln't be this bad.... not this bad...

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I began exhibiting symptoms of depression when I was around 22. I wish it weren't so. However, the good news is, with medication I've lived mostly symptom-free, went to grad school mid-life, worked as a therapist....so really, although the bad episodes seem like "my life" (like now), they really have just been a small part of my life.

Warm thoughts...