I'm glad that you're working on finding out what's right for you... too often when something discouraging happens, there's the temptation to throw your hands up in the air and say, "that's it!" Well, that's how I react too often. I've never been to AA (travel is a real bind where I live, I'm six miles from the nearest town, the meetings are in the evenings, and I have nobody to mind my son... also it being such a parochial little village, the last thing I want is the villagers to find out I've had a problem and start gossiping about me. They already think I'm odd!)

If I ever move to an easier area, I think I'd try AA, it might well help. Anyway, I'm glad that you're looking for a better fit, and I hope you find it.