It is so hard when your T is away let alone at a time that you find difficult. I am so happy you have coped so far. Please use the coping skills you have learned while you have been in therapy rather to resorting to old ways. I know how difficult this can be but it sounds like you are strong and determined enough to make it through. Will posting here help? If you ever need someone to talk to especially through these hard times pleas PM me. Be safe and give yourself the kindness you deserve.