Thanks guys....I still haven't sent the email, and I think time is running out. Now that I've written it all out, it seems kind of silly and unimportant. I don't know why I feel that way. I'm thinking I should just send it anyway, because I have been thinking about it for 2 weeks since my last session.

Lastyear....
Thanks a lot for your feedback. You are right, maybe that part is unnecessary. You see, my T uses CBT, and she has taught me things like how to identify distorted thoughts and restructure them. She tries to get me to use thought restructuring and journaling, and other things to help me. And the thing is, I'm not doing them.
That might be part of the reason I may sound a little invalidating toward myself. Because I haven't tried hard enough, and I haven't done the things I need to do in order to move forward.

Treehouse,
You are so sweet to remember about that other consultant T.
He was very nice, and I maybe he could really help me.

But, as much as I hate the thought of starting with a new T, I'm not so much writing it off because of ME, but because of them.

I've heard that a lot of Ts won't take eating d/o clients because of the liability involved from the physical repercussions. I think that would severly limit the options of Ts who would take me as a client.