I'm sorry that alcohol took your soul mate, bebop. My heart goes out to you. I lost a soul mate unexpectedly when he was young, and another to his own foolishness and fear. Of course, I made mistakes in both relationships, but fear certainly wasn't the means by which I dealt with the second one. So I guess I must believe we are allotted more than one soul mate, but doubt and newfound fear interfere with that belief from time to time...