Oh MUE, you have so much going on right now, I wish I could reach you to hug you

It sounds like you are working so hard to deal with things skilfully but they just keep coming and coming at you. At the moment you are feeling very responsible for everyone else's actions and feelings and the consequences. Perhaps you act skilfully by tackling things head on, then feel guilty for doing so?

Can you be gentle with yourself? Keep reminding yourself that in each of these situations, you have done what you thought was wise and skilful? Try to notice the feelings of guilt, and then notice that that doesn't really belong to you and let it gently go?

I'm sorry you are still suffering with your poor head. It must make everything so much worse. Is there any way you could step back from things a bit? It's good to try to deal with things, but we don't need to deal with things constantly, to the detriment of our health. Perhaps you need to prioritise taking a break and looking after yourself?