Well, it was a year ago this week that I saw my pdoc and he sent me on my way to the psych ward because of certain thoughts. 10 days in the hospital, med changes and ECT. Then three months in partial hospitalization. A year in therapy now.
I'm more stable these days, but still have problems with mood swings. Thankfully, I am no longer severely depressed all the time.
It's been a rough year, but I can say tha I am much improved. Still have a long way to go now.
I still wonder why I bother sometimes. But, I keep pushing through when the moods get out of hand. I guess that's all I can do.