i slept until 2pm today; a total of like 14 hours. i couldn't drag my self out of bed for more then 5 minutes at a time unless i was vomiting from the hang over.

i cried for most of the day, and in tears now. i feel so worthless, and empty, and i feel like i dont want to go on in so much pain. but i'm so afraid of my self, and i'm such a coward, i'm not going to act on any impulses.

i'm so utterly afraid. i'm going back to sleep. maybe my dreams will provide me with some comfort...