Guess my sister found my son on facebook and was asking about me.. oo yippee... We haven't spoken in over l0 years not sure what the point is now to talk. There is history here. Stuff I am not going to get into now.. But the bottom line is I don't want to meet up with her and let her rally in my failures....

Guess I irked AJ when I mentioned to him the job is gone and I asked him if he knew what the job was paying. He said no and I said I think you should know and he flipped and as aways blamed me because I didn't do his resume, which I told him I did not know the "computer language" to write the resume weeks ago... SO he said since I am such a "B#### he is going to invite my sister here. lol... I just won't anser the door... I refuse for her to see how much I've fallen apart and the conditions in which I live......................

To be honest I don't want anyone that knows me see me now. I used to always be well dressed and well groomed. She'd just wrinkle her nose in disgust..I've made my choices and I don't need being put on display in a circus freak show....I can live with me now, just I don't e xpect others to agree or understand...........

Please don't respond.. HONEST.....I just wish there was a place I could "air" out all my "issues" and just be heard and not replied to. Sometimes stuff just hangs inside and it festers so I need to just spit it out.. and let it out without trying to figure out the whyssssss..

Thank you for understanding.. Sometimes reality isn't as nice in real life when one can put it in a box, lock it and toss out the key...I don't want to find the key and I don't want to meet with my sister... let along for her to see me in person...