(((HUGS!)))

Oh Hopeful, I am sorry that you are going through so much right now. I have been there before where numbness took over any emotional feelings. My best guess is that right now you are going through too much for you to handle right now so your brain is telling you to cut so you don't get swamped and pulled down any further by any emotions at this time. Just don't let it get you down too much. Keep talking to your T, try to be as honest as you can with her, I know that can be hard at times but remember that she is there to help you through this. I miss talking to you. Wishing that you will get through this yucky chapter sometime soon, Thinking about you tons!