You have taken the most difficult step of all, you have admited that you need help. I would say that your parents would be understanding if you express to them what you have here on the post. I know it is scary, but those are your parents and I am sure they love you, and at least they would be aware of what you are feeling. I agree with you that you need help now not years from know, if you cant talk to your parents in person, perhaps you could write a letter expressing your feelings as well as fears, and give it to the one you feel most comfortable with. I hope all goes well.
Take care
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