Thank you so much for your support Innerzone. And lots of hugs to you too every day of this week until you see your pdoc

It is very interesting you saying that about music and visual arts and then poetry - actually I'm thinking of writing my dissertation on that subject if I manage to actually start my MA next year! I find the relationship between the visual arts and literature fascinating, and I have the opposite 'problem' to you. I love modern art, it can move me, it can reach into the silence better than words can a lot of the time. But if someone who doesn't get the same feeling as me and sees a Kandinsky painting, for example, as a colourful geometry project, I can't adequately explain why to me is more than that. And the same with music. I think it has to do with training but also just how your brain reacts to different things - I have a friend who is an artist and often I will try to say what I think of his work and he says 'you really try to analyse this as a text don't you?' And most people find poetry easier than visual arts in consciously understanding what is going on, so you should be very proud of your ability too!! It's rare and shows great depth of feeling and ability in abstract thinking.
What matters is that you can appreciate poetry, and appreciate it with your heart, it speaks to you, which is the point anyway

But I wish I was an artist myself. When words fail all I can do is paint and it takes a lot of 'brainwashing' to not care that my poor skills can't give me what I want in expressing myself.

At some point you should tell me more about your artwork, if you want, or show me something I promise not to analyse it as a text, I'm just interested!