i don't think i understand the concept of being 'in the moment' very well.

My stressor has eased somewhat, but i'm left feeling numb. I dont have too much fighting spirit left, but instead am just going with the flow. Held together by meds and therapy, and the bit of support i may have.
Will start looking for a new job I think. Else considered a move within the company, which the 'talent manager'/organisational psychologist would assist me with. And i know it would be easier to justify if i told him about my BP. But scared of that.
Else thinking of running a real estate company branch for my partner. Huge IT component, and I probably have more passion for a real managerial position, not my half-hearted management position where I stilll get dictated to and used to the nth degree. I work a 50 hour week most of the time; no over-time pay