Eileen,
Thanks for your reply - you gave me a really different perspective and I appreciate it.


I don't know what will be best for me. Trauma work, no trauma work.....I just want to feel better, to be better. I want to be able to go through the day without wishing I didn't exist. I want to feel like I'm living again instead of walking around like a dead person.

I wish I had confidence that my T can help me. I know she wants to help me but I'm not sure she knows how. I think she just wants me to be able to help myself, but then again, maybe that is distorted thinking on my part. I don't trust my thinking at all.

No response from T this morning to my email. I didn't really expect one. She may respond later this morning, but she may not since I will see her tonight.