>>I'm going to see a school counseler but I don't know how much help that will be.

The school counselor may be a good starting point. He or she may be able to refer you to the help you need if they are not equipped to provide it themselves. So seeing a school counselor is a great idea. If they don't get you to what you need, keep trying!

I absolutely agree that the hardest step is realizing that you need help and seeking that help. Do whatever it takes to get the help you need and keep posting here. We've been there and we understand.

good luck and let us know how you are doing.

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