OH wow.l

So, I have to do this thing tonight. It is very very very very very scary for me. It's something I have to do, and I just have to keep moving and get through it. But. Wow.

I e-mailed T this weekend because I was in panic attack mode, and he replied "I'm glad we have a session on monday" lol Maybe he will be able to calm me down. Although I'm pretty scared, and I'm a little scared it will make it worse.

I guess I'll go and tell him I just need to feel cared for. He'll let me talk about why I'm scared. Hopefully, I'll leave feeling all filled up with love and safety. I know he knows how important this is...I hope we're both on our game and don't stray into rupture-land.

OMG. Time is crawling.