Wow. Today sucks. My partner just mentioned that I look tired and pale.
It's how I feel. I have been working very hard on myself (a good deal oftherapy, ACOA, Al Anon). But I feel like the rest of my life is falling apart. Why can't I hold it together? Every day I get up and look for jobs online but there is nothing. My body buzzes with feeling ill and nauseous. I feel like I have the flu and I just want to crawl into bed and cry. I feel both that life is precious and I also want to give up. Just in the sense that I can't do this. I don't have the stregth or energy to do this all. Everything around me feels like molasses. I want someone to tell me its OK, that I can rest now.