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Originally Posted by splitimage
This is not intended as an AA bashing post, I'm just feeling very frustrated with the attitudes of some AA members. And I know I need to get a new sponsor.
I called my sponsor yesterday to tell her I'm starting rehab today. Me I'm thinking this is a good thing, and that she'll be happy. Nope - she told me in no uncertain terms that I shouldn't be doing it. The problems: This particular rehab is not a 12 step program, I've done it before and it didn't keep me sober so I'm not going to learn anything new and I should just be focussing on AA, and my personal favourite - it keeps me in patient mode which is just an excuse for not working on my character defects. Oh and by the way I shouldn't be on the meds I'm on, most especially not the Naltrexone and Antabuse. Sorry, but my decisions about meds are between me and my Dr., and I like this rehab because it's a real concurrent disorders program which is really hard to find, and I figure I can always learn something new.
Then I went to my AA meeting. The meeting itself was good. But after the meeting, one woman decided to give me unsolicted advice - which was all standard AA lines, which normally I'm ok with except I was already in a foul mood after the conversation with my sponsor. And then she comes out with she thinks I shouldn't be on meds, and that after I've been sober awhile if I work a good program my depression will go away. Sure - I've struggled with depression my entire life even before I started drinking. Thanks to my meds, I'm not suicidal for the first time in as long as I can remember, I haven't self injured in over 2 years although I still want to daily.
I honestly don't get the anti psych meds thing. It even says in the Big Book that some people can benefit from psychiatric help, so to me telling me that I shouldn't be seeing Dr's or taking meds, is not in keeping with the program.
It's stuff like this that really makes me not want to go to meetings.
--splitimage
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The thing is with some in AA, they haven't really been "cured", they've just replace the bottle with something else, they haven't opened their minds to anything other then the end of their nose, much like the bottom of the glass they use to get as far as. Have you thought about being your own sponser and doing whatever you feel is right for you? the BB was written by a middle age stock broker that lived the rest of his life with his "other" woman, what his take on what I should do with my life had not interest to me, it was just his take on what he felt he needed to do to stay sober and to keep others buying his book, there is no evidence that AA has any higher success rates that then any other recover help and infact more people just stop drinking and carry on with their lifes then attend AA..its not bashing AA to question it, any good organisation should be able to withstand being looked at. AA attracts control freaks, and narcissists and those with the need to belong to something. If you find another sponser your get the same thing fed to you, there is life without AA, infact I found life without AA to be much more promising and encouraging and freeing, who wants to give up the drink only to be trapped by something else?