I hear you .It's like talking to myself.Just yesterday i was feeling suicidal!What's changed?you tell me-the day-serotonin levels?Going to the hospital is very hard and it isn't?We decide!.I've felt what you feel.I know your pain.My shrink always told me that if things we're unbearable to go to the hospital.He's right!That's if i couldn't reach his emergency service.I thought i couldn't take much more yesterday!Here i am today.I tried to kill myself last October.I still wonder what went wrong.Right now i like "WRONG".Keep in touch please.