i dont want u to feel alone i can very much relate feeling a little upset today so i will post more later yeah i know a lot of times depression has to do with external stuff not a chemical imbalance i dont even like the term antidepressants cuz zoloft helps with serotonin levels but i could take all the anti dep in the world & still be depressed rite now things look bleak but when i read my Bible i always feel better in a way i feel guilty bout goin into difficulties cuz i feel like im complaining when God has been so good over & over but then i guess holding it in doesnt help either tired will post more later & again ur not alone with everything u mentioned hugs hugs