It sounds pretty ok to me.. what you are sharing as to how you're feeling. I'm glad you mentioned it with your T, and maybe you need to chat about it some more? I mean, just expressing something once doesn't usually take care of all the thoughts and emotions involved. And, if you can talk to your friend some about it.

Feeling safe in a safe- someone's arms is a good thing. It's ok to have some reservations though... really. Learning to trust and learning who you can trust is hard work. I think you are doing pretty goon with this. TC