((((((Elana)))))) I'm impressed by all the hard work you've been doing - therapy, alanon/acoa, job hunting. It IS a lot. It's good for me to be reminded that though people may not feel like doing the work, they do it anyway. Too often, I surrender to my molasses-ness. Molasses is a word I use too, to describe my physical and mental sluggishness. I hope that you can let yourself rest and be restored.