I am glad to hear you are seeking help. As I neared my break down my suicide obsession increased until I thought about it all the time. I would get images in my head of having done it, so bright and clear. So when I hear someone say they are having these thoughts I feel...I don't know I just feel. It is strange to think that one can think about killing themselves so much. What was odd was how much I didn't want to die even though I couldn't stop thinking about killing myself. It is such a strange juxtaposition.
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"Knowledge comes, but wisdom lingers."--Tennyson