Well...I finally have a resolution to this. My agency...has agreed to lay me off and allow me to collect unemployment. i didn't think they would but when i started bawling and finally said, "listen, I'm bipolar and i am starting to really lose it..." she stopped me and said " don't say another word...I understand and i will take care of this". i don't generally disclose my illness to people i work with, but i really needed for her to understand the magnitude. I am so relieved.
So now I do have to go back on Wednesday to finish out my "2 weeks notice" but i'm hoping this will go without incident or too much passive agressiveness from my soon to be ex-boss. she does not know about my bipolar (she is on a statewide board for mental health so you'd think she'd be understanding but she doesn't need to know)
So i took today and tomorrow off to avoid the most stressful meeting and I even made it out of the house today which was very difficult....
I really appreciate everyone here - the feedback and support - it's so nice.