Wow, kebsfroggy--how articulate and sensitive you are! I can feel your pain, coming through the screen; your descriptions are so vivid and poetic. Wish there were something I do to ease your sorrows. All I can do is tell you I was pleased to be able to read what you shared, as it is expressed so well and so uniquely. It would be my wish that you continue to post how you are doing on life's journey, and that you have some happier moments and thoughts ahead of you--SOON! Please continue to make the effort for those of us around you, who might learn from you or enjoy what you have to offer. I'd love to see more of your drawings. Please accept my best wishes and hopes for you, for a happier tomorrow.