What you are describing is the "double whammy"--predisposition to depression from a physical standpoint and then life circumstances and stressors that would sadden anyone. My oredicament is similar. But I've been able to rise up with the help of new meds and therapy to see a brighter future. Doesn't change the end zone being far away--financial freedom, that sort of thing--but makes the day-to-day living more pleasant. Hope this happens for you too. It likely won't happen overnight. You'll just realize one day that things don't seem quite as dreary, that you have more smiling monents you can recall. Cherish the time you have together; I think you'll work through this in time.