Its been almost a year that I havent cut myself. And that whole time, my boyfriends been there, trying to support me. I really appriciate it, I do. But hes starting to..not understand how hard it is for me not to just give in again. The feeling is still fresh in my memory, and I just, Ive gained more self control this long year, but Its always still there, in the back of my mind, and my boyfriend just doesnt understand.. Lately Ive been getting more and more urges. My boyfriend just says "well, its been almost a year, you shouldnt want to do that anymore" And yeah, I dont want to, but i just..miss it? Im not sure how i feel about it anymore.