This post is long- responses are welcome even if you don't read it all.

rrg. T acknowledged he hadn't slept well. I can't imagine having a job where I can't get by when I have a sleepless night once in a while, so I should give him a break. Has your t had a session like that, where s/he seemed really off?

But, this t already is slightly over my line with spending time just chatting & talking about himself. I get the sense my issues might not be worth taking too seriously. Tonight the whole session seemed like just chatting. I brought up a few things, but felt uncomfortable to talk about them deeply. And he didn't ask. Am I taking myself too seriously?

He talked about his travels (interesting and related to what came up, but not exactly therapy-ish), gave me a suggestion for a restaurant, talked about the changing diversity of the town where we live, talked about his experiences in grad school (again, related to a topic I brought up, but didn't seem like therapy). He actually said at one point, bring me back if this is too far off with talking about myself. I don't know why I didn't feel comfortable to do it. Should I be the one to take the initiative to take the conversation (to what i think is) deeper? Maybe he's a little afraid to do it, now that I've told him I want to initiate the topics we discuss? Or he was just too tired?

I'm getting to the point I'm not confident therapy can do much for me, but I don't want to believe that. My diagnosis is mild to moderate depression, ongoing for decades. No severe trauma or abuse, nothing else. I'm not sure my issues are serious enough or real enough for therapy to help.

I'm getting closer to emailing the couples t I had earlier, though I'm nervous. I feel bad about maybe leaving this t. He's nice to me & I like him. Maybe he would be able to help me. Other t was challenging/intimidating. I don't know what to do. rrg.

In case this post isn't long enuf, I posted about my current t before and here. And the challenging t here