I can only suggest that you read a good book, something that is far from what you want to do, but is still a good book. Just move your mind to a new place, some thing far from what you want... and just focus. It will be hard, but it is worth it. Getting away from SI was the best thing I could do for myself, and then I don't have to say anything to my treatment team because I was able to move my mind on to my school work... Focus is key. Good luck, and you can do it!!