I have not posted for many days. It is very good to read your posts. Although I must admit I did not go back too far to read. SS I love hearing about your tree and the tobaco offering. You are such an inspiration. Sun, you are also such an inspiration to me. I am sure if I read back I would read other peoples posts and be duly inspired as well.

It was intersting reading about the panic attacks etc. I have them. I told me doctor but she didnt take it very seriously. No one honestly does. Perhaps thats the way I want it. So Im not thrown on very heavy drugs. I have klonazapham to take when I get an attack. But usually I do not take it because its addictive. And the more I would take it, the higher dose I would need. So I usually just manage to get through them somehow. I try to breathe properly through them. Because I know that the breath is so important. I was also told to take rescue remedy ( Or what I take which is Australian Bush emergency remedy).

I read about Sangha here. I used to be in a local Sangha associated with Thich Nhat Hanh. I know they are many places throughout the country, and world. And I know they do meditation, walking and sitting. here is a link if you are interested in seeing if there is a Sangha in your area http://www.mindfulnessbell.org/index.php Where it says "directory" on the top is a dropdown menu specifically relating to Sanghas.

I have to get back to sitting. Starting tonight. I do not sit on the floor. The teacher I have been relating to in the past many years recommends sitting on a chair. Its a meditation model that comes out of the Berkley Psychic Institute. A guy named Michael J Tamura teaches it. Although he has not been affiliated with the institute in many years. Life is ever changing. So perhaps in the future I will find a way that I relate to more. But he teaches to sit on a chair when meditating. Hey, whatever works. I would be grateful to just be able to get in the meditation zone and stay there for a while. Great work SS that you did it for 45 minutes !!!!
Huge thanks to all. I love reading your words. Inspiration and challenge. Thank you for the community <3<3<3