Do not be so hard on yourself. You have some worth here, you are helping and supporting others. I'm sure that means a lot to people here. You are also very caring. Your replies to ohers are always with kindness. This is great worth through my eyes.

When I sometime dissociate or numb things inside it is so I can let the positive things get through me, let love get in so I will be more strong to keep going in this life. I have to say that sometime I do dissociate because well with my husband I have too for another reason and at these times I don't rememebr anything but anyway to dissociate for me is a coping skill so to protect myself or to help me to get good things in. One way or another it is to help me out. So I think if you can also do that it could be good if you can see some positive in what you are doing. I'm not saying that you are not trying. What I'm saying is to turn it to your advantage.

You are having a hard time but we are here for you. I just want the best for you. Please do not give up!

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