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Originally Posted by Sannah
Someone who wants to get better would tell her therapist this. I think that you did a great job here.
My theory is that you are such an expert at suppressing all of your emotions that this is what is causing your BP symptoms and that once you work through all of this your BP symptoms will be gone.
Suppressing emotions is not healthy and our body responds to this added stress biochemically.
(Squiggle's words) "Who in their right mind would tell a therapist, "I fantasize about you. I am sexually attracted to you. I think about you all the time."
Someone who wants to get better would tell her therapist this. I think that you did a great job here.
This stuff needs to be stirred up. This is how you get better.........
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I actually think I may agree with you, Sannah. Although I do believe that some need to be on meds, a large number of people take meds and this only hinders what the real issue is. For me, meds just don't do much at all to relieve my symptoms.
Not so sure therapy does either! But, I can see where talking about my issues and getting them out there can be very healing. It takes a LONG time, though. I feel like my therapist and I have been talking about the same issue for months! I even addressed that with her today. "
Can we talk about something else?"
Of course she sees this as avoidance, so we still talk about it. I guess it could be worse. We could be stuck on the
"I have feelings for my therapist!" That would be 10 times worse. So glad that we have worked through that one.
To be honest, I still have those crazy sexual thoughts about her. The difference is that now they don't overpower me. They don't get blown out of proportion in my mind! I think of it like this. How many times have we been sitting in church and thought,
"I wonder if so and so has sex? Does the preacher have sex? What about this person or that person?"
It is just the mind wandering! Nothing else. Just those random crazy thoughts that come in our minds. At least they come to my mind. Maybe I am alone on this? Do others think this nutty stuff?
With my therapist, I really think being alone in her office so much just caused that reaction. We do talk about sex alot, so I just naturally had those thoughts in my mind. The next thing I know, I am thinking about her. Does she have sex? Does she enjoy sex? I wonder if she is thinking about that when we are talking about my disfunctional sex life?
Random thoughts that got totally out of control. I still cannot believe I told her. That took a lot or courage or stupidness!! I sure hope that she did not write that in my file. "
Squiggle is a bit off with her sexual fanatasies. Beware of being alone with her. She may pounce on you!"
I can laugh and joke about it now, but really it was no laughing matter when I was going through it.