Amother year stuck here in this marrige.

I don't know what to do anymore.

Last night, my husband brings home an 18 pack. I guess he was hoping I wouldn't notice since it's New Years and all that.

I never do say anything because it causes major problems, but last night something snapped. Maybe it was the energy from the new year. Whatever it was I was not scared of him anymore.

I pointed out to him that he was a drunk, a workaholic, emotionally, verbally, and abusive person. I also told him he was ruining our family.

I did not yell, I did not shout, but I was sure that he heard me this time.

Of course he sheilded himself with his smartass humor. Then the insults came, horrible ones too. But it didn't matter for some reason he can't hurt me now.

I recieved a letter in the mail, it is a large amount of money my grandmother had hid before she passed away. In her will she asked that I not recieve it till 2006.

I'm thinking about escaping this place and becoming free. But I don't think I have the guts.

What would you do?

Desirae