I just wrote a long response to what people said. And then my email, which I was using to compose it, went wacky. So I lost it. I will give you the cliff notes of what I said. Sundog, I am glad your dog is doing better. I completely understande how it feels for the mind to always be going to the place of worse scenario. This is my life.

SS I also feel the same way about my pets. They were family members. My heart doesnt know the difference when I loves a family member. Of course having a child is different. After all animals do not live as long as humans, etc. But still my heart loves deeply. I also do not have self love. So my love is projected outward.

I am glad that you know that there is the option to sit on a chair when you meditate. Many teachers I know teach to do it that way. I use a method called "running your energy". I am not recommending anyone study at Berkley Psychic insitute. I do not know what it is like today. So I would never personally recommend it.

Thank you for the link for mindfulness clock that I do not have to download. How wonderful is that !! I am sorry that sound is such a challenge for you. Have you ever read about HSP? "The Highly sensitive person". Sound sensitivity is a very common trait for a HSP.
SS I am so impressed with how you self monitor your behaviors. To try to not allow your anxiety and avoidance to take the drivers seat all the time. I have " Avoidant Personality disorder". So reading your words is quite impressive to me.

Oh I am sureeeee there was more I wrote before it was so rudely messed with in the email. Yes I remember one other thing. There is a teacher named Sonia Choquette who says that when someones thoughts are running the show, they can just sing. That when we are singing ( it must be out loud) the monkey mind cannot also be running. Thought that was interesting.

Anyway, I wish everyone more peace of mind, healing and love that you have in your heart, returned to you 100 fold.
Below is a picture of Sister Chan Khong. She is Thich Nhat Hanhs right hand person. And is a truly amazing person. Her autobiography is very inspirational