Keep getting this stuff out. It is very healing. Another thing which is huge is forgiveness if you are still blaming yourself. I did this for years and I can't say that I completely forgive myself but I am now at the point where I can see that I wasn't the only one to blame for what happened to me. A lot of others played a huge role in this, Wishing to continued safety, hugs, love, and a life that includes happiness.